Random Thoughts

So many thoughts go through a mind. A God-fearing person like me also fears the validity of these thoughts. Are any of them amounting to Blasphemy? Will any of these will derail my faith in Islamic Monotheism?

The greatness of Allah lies in the fact that He knows us people. He knows that some of us go through such torments of thought and reality. In such times one can and should seek the protection of the Lord from any ungainly thoughts that might creep into one's value system.

Many a verses in the Holy book are intended for this purpose. Asking for protection from the Whispers of the Devil is just one way of being safe.

As it is, God has given Mankind only that much knowledge to survive on Earth and its outer boundaries. When proposing some theories and matters involving faith, it is important that it is mentioend that God knows best. Better safe than sorry.

and Allah Knows Best.

Dell me Why?

Point 2 -- Game Performance To test the gaming ability of this system on the latest and greatest games I decided to use Doom 3. The Inspiron 6000 D with the 64 MB ATi X300 card didn't do too well here. I could only get an average of 30 FPS when using low graphics settings and the 800x600 resolution. It looked pretty bad. Otherwise the game was working fine with all of its effects, characters, and maps. Source Engine games should play better than that since it scales better to different kinds of hardware. Unfortunately I don't have a day to waste on going through 6 CD's and waiting for Steam to do its business. UT2004 should play well on this machine too. Although if you're looking to run Unreal Engine 3 next year you'll likely want to look elsewhere or put up with poor graphics. Solitaire ran so well I couldn't even get an FPS count! :-D

Dell Inspiron 6000 Review (pics, specs)

Hehehee..Guess what hopefully I am going to buy this Laptop. and i was going through its review. I found something real funny so wanted to let you know

Why does it happen SO?

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Why does this happen?

Why do bloggers spam the blog in the beginning and then never come back? Well that is human tendency to get involved with something new and then get bored of it..sooner or later...

I wanted to keep this blog going...

I keep getting thoughts..but when I sit in front fo a computer all these evaporate.

Various thoughts

Why is America Mono-Policing he World? Why Indians are corrupt? Why Dogs die unnatural deaths? I have many views about all of these...but somehow I can't remember enough of the stuff to put it down...

Human Inventions are so limited. What will happen to my thoughts if i never convey them..Never tell them to anyone..Never materialize my ideas..So many inventions are being made by men just to make money..but what is being done to reclaim these random thoughts from so many humans on earth?

Good thoughts are very hard to come by. when they do come they disappear faster than ever...

I get very thoughtful when I drive...i can't note them down..i am riding with both my hands..if only there was something that wud capture my thoughts then and there..wudn't it be great? Well, atleast I think i shud put more effort and try to rem..thats the best way to go...

Doom

My only complaint with the sound at this point has nothing to do with mood and more to do with my gun wielding satisfaction. Guns just don't have the oomph that I desire. I want to feel the shock and thud of a machine gun humming in my hands. Not clicking and clacking, even if that's what a gun actually sounds like.

IGN: DOOM 3 Review

well..i have played DOOM 3 demo..Its pretty cool and scary..If only i had a better system..I would try and get hold of the full game. But you know it was a big struggle playing the demo on my paltry 1.7 GHz Pentium. I just don't have that hang for games now that most HI-Fi games don't run on my system.

Flock

This is a great place to get started.Here's a list of thirteen things you really should try with Flock. We're bragging, of course, but at the end of the list you'll also find a few warnings about things we're still working on.Enjoy!

Flock

Blogger's Delight

Man this Browser is definitely going to break through to the next gen of internet. Blogging made easy, Photo sharing too..and best of the lot...Online indexing of your favourite sites. Thats a real cool idea.

Setting up your blog can be a bit confusing but once you get the hang of it..You are going to enjoy..Doing stuff like you do in outlook...Never will have to go to that frigging blog site again.

Looks like lots of revenue lost there.:p

Anyway nice utility..I hope I can string all my blog accounts together after this blog finishes.

Bye

Regards

Siraj

A dream come true

It is a beautiful experience seeing a dream come true especially when it is a beautiful one.

A year and a few months ago, I saw a dream. Unsettling to begin with, I was searching for my sister. She was nowhere to be found. I was really worried, asking others how irresponsible they can get to lose her. I was searching for her everywhere possible, but in vain. Then my eyes fell on a wall. It had a hole in it. As big as a keyhole. I went closer, without knowing why? I peeped in. I saw a baby boy lying in two rags of white clothes.

He was beautiful. Fair of complexion, high forhead, and lots of hair on his head. There was a gushing happiness about my heart that flushed away my fears of not finding Sabina. I was having an elation beyond comprehension. I saw him.

At that moment it did not mean much. My sister was expecting at that time. So the most probable conclusion i could draw was that she might give birth to a baby boy. I shared this dream with my dad and said it was a good dream.

My happiness knew no bounds when my sister gave birth to a baby boy with guess what? Lots of hair on his head, fair and a high forehead. I was so glad that my dream came true.

And today I met this guy, whose forevision I had. He is as cute as in my dream. He brought the same gushing feelings into my heart.

I am happy.

Regards
Siraj

Dogs Landings and Wishes

I sit down again to write my Blog.

I look back and appreciate the number of essays I have typed and untyped.

Sure. People can write MORE than this if only could find a better way to channel the thoughts racing through ones mind or maybe on second thought lesser if they find an even better way to communicate. But, being what it is..text does provide a useful outlet to ones feelings and emotions.

My journey back to home from office, without the stress of traffic, never fails to arouse distinct thoughts. Many of these relate to what I experience and a few things that just go through my mind.

I keep seeing dead dogs on the road. Today I saw three. All three at various stages of mutilation. One lay there recently deceased, baring its teeth. An unpleasant frame which I could avoid. Another in an extreme of mutilation splattered all over the road, which sadly I could not avoid. When I realized it was a dead dog, a shiver ran down my spine. A rising feeling of disgust, for not being able to avoid it, made me wince. I wish, something can be done about Dogs. Hopefully.

Another thing that happened today. Which gave me enough proof of a little undisclosed theory I had. The theory goes hence
"The realization of the failure of a Headlight happens most probably at
night(when you are using it)"

And it happened to me. My headlight failed, both the low and high beams. I could only feel agitated by it, as I could have gone and got the already ailing headlight bulb without a low beam.

My sister is landing in India today, I will see the guy(nabeel) whom I saw even before he was born. No, not from an X-ray but I saw him in a dream. He was lying on a bed, High forehead, fair complexion and a beautiful face. I was so happy when I saw my dream come true. He indeed has a high forehead. Hope I can spend quality time with him. And with my brother-in-law, my favorite technology man.

He is the reason my drive are much more pleasant these days.

Well there were other ideas I was pondering. Forgot them trying to verbalize the ideas I have put forth above. Hope I can get back to them some other time.

I take this opportunity to wish two good people Happy Birthday

My eldest sister 30-07-2005 (May God bless you with what is good for you) and

Ramakrishna 01-08-2005 (a friend, I know you will read this. May God bless you with what is Best for you)

Taking Leave
Siraj

From a Sinner

Does anybody know how "bad" works? Do "bad"(lets consider "bad" as Bad from now on for convenience) people know how bad makes them do things?

I have been thinking a lot regarding these things. my previous Blog dealt a lot with this. Still, i want to think more about it.

Did Satan know he would be abolished by God from heaven or was he blinded by his pride?

Did he think God would forgive him?

These are things only God knows. But whatever happened then, I am here now.

And guess what? Even I do a few wrong things. I think, looking at the process of, how I go about doing my wrong things gives an account of how Satan goes about doing his own bad things ..at least to some extent if not exactly or wholly.

There are different stages of committing bad things. They could be many more than what I list here.

1. Lets try it out: This thing always gets us hooked and into trouble. We generally do not know the consequences of things and get into them headlong without for a moment thinking about good or bad.

2. Just one more time: Once you are hooked you always crave for that one last time. That last time never comes to be. It just is always "one last time" and soon when you look back you see it is too late.

3. Maybe I will be forgiven: Go ahead and commit a crime, with a belief that you will be forgiven. Some people can be as naive as that to believe that they will be forgiven after committing a crime intentionally. No they have to bear the consequences someday. But that is what makes them commit the crime.

At this point I do not have any other ideas. And I would not like to force Ideas.

Hope we can keep ourselves from committing such crimes/ sins and so on. Now that u have got lessons..heheh..from a sinner.

May God guide us onto the right path.

And always remember what ever I slander here there is one truth no one can deny

"God Know Best"

Regards and Peace
Siraj

Good, bad and unknown

Please Read with a clear mind

Double Standards: They are so common. They are everywhere. Everybody is a victim. Even I am a culprit. I am a Victim of double standards.

What you think, you say and you do. Once all these three are the same thing, there will be nothing wrong with humanity. Hypocrisy is the root of Double Standards.

What is Good What is Bad. We know. We knew from Long. But Hypocrisy and Double Standards tend to make us think Good is Bad and Bad is good. Let me explain.

Bad is Bad and it has twisted ways of show its ugly face. Bad uses Good to take over Good. Bad says to the Good you are good and stokes Good's Pride. And Pride becomes arrogance. Soon the lines between Good and Bad get blurred and Bad makes Good do Bad. Slowly but Steadily.

Bad builts around Good a wall of False pride and a cage of past good events which cloud the mind of Good. One has to be humble to be able to break that cage. And Humbler not to allow that cage to be built.

Never regard a goodly work as your best accomplishment. Never. See it as a step to achieve something greater. Better than what u have achieved till now. I fear being my best. For, after being best I cannot grow.

But never fail to be best among your kind. Among your People, Friends and Collegues. Compete with the Best. If you are the Best compete with yourself.

Well that is for now..Enough Dose of Abstract Philosophy.

ENjoy
Siraj

Laziness

WOW..
Long time..This will be short.

I was coming back from my office ...the journey was uneventful until I saw a few dogs chasing each other..and at 60 kmph I hit the lead dog in the chase

a short Kweeenk..kain kain from the dog is all I heard..there were about six more dogs around..If i had fallen I wud have been bitten to pieces. THank God i did not..

Stupid Dog. Running havoc on the highway..at 3 a.m. early in the morning

Now, i think, what happened to the dog...maybe a few fractures..poor thingie...tch tch tch...I shud take up something..I keep seeing dead dogs on the highway a lot...maybe ask the municipality to clear them off..

Had a nice topic for today's blog but it took back seat when I hit THE DOG!!!

by the way..it was a white dog..with patches of brown..I think the dog chasing him was black in color
Siraj

Jeanie Experience

Recently I was thinking about my experiences with Jeans. Good and Bad. Then the time wheel started spinning and I went back to my first ever jeans that I could remember. And I realized the event should figure on the Blawg..wow..here goes..

It was a Sunday. I was maybe 6 years old. We were out visiting a few family friends. It was an experience to remember. they lived in the Tallest building in the city at that time..and that building had LIFTS!!! Wooohoo..I'd never had a chance to ride a lift. I got it in and my dad pressed all those hi-fi looking buttons on the panel and the first minor G-force was experienced.

That ride lasted only few floors as the friends lived only on the third floor..soon everyone greeted themselves and were busy doing whatever that people of that age do when they meet. No interest for a 6 year old. There was noone my age. I went to the balcony and was looking out at the sunday traffic.

Then I was given something to drink. As a natural reaction I felt the need to attend to a nature call. Poor little me had a very small volume (storing capacity) then.

I got into the restroom. went to the potty and started to let the zip down. Oh Yeah I was wearing my One and Only Jeans because it was Sunday and I did not have school. The Zip wouldn't come down!!!

I struggle with it as Gollum did with the Elven rope in Lord of the Rings..(oh u must see the graphics..amazing). But no graphics in the restroom.. I start struggling harder to unzip. Like a man reaching out for breath when drowning in a clear pond..then the inevitable happens..Too MUCH struggle and the muscles contracted and my storage hold Broke...right there...in my jeans!!!

I was ..shell shocked. I went and squeaked for my mom to come. She came in and laughed like anything. somehow she removed the jeans. I do not remember exactly how but she was stronger than me then..I was in tears unable to bear the embarassment. Ha Ha Ha. Then when I was half naked the uncle who lived there gave me the youngest person's shorts, for me to wear. It was like a huge bag. After that everything got too hazy..maybe it was the tears maybe something else..

Thats what I remembered the best in my experiences with Jeans. Hope you enjoyed it.
Siraj

Bike Rides Inspired

I love riding my bike. It gives such a release. whenever I feel sick I go and ride my bike. The fresh air (or the not so fresh air) hitting the face simply is "unbeatable".

Sometimes when I am driving I keep having this glimmers of Imaginations. A short stab at unreal reality. I imagine my brakes failing altogether and me going straight into the back of a stationary truck. OUCH!!!

Today I was driving very fast along side a truck carrying a laudable load. The glimmer happened again. I imagined, while I was speeding beside the truck, myself making a maneouvre that would take me into the side of the truck. And then KAPOW!!! I loose balance...my handle swerves and crash to the ground.Skid along for a while or come underneath the rear jumbo sized tyres of the truck and come up on the other side a mangled heap of flesh and bones..more bones than flesh in this case....WOW...thats only imagination!!! I squirm at my thoughts and come back to the reality of overtaking the truck and moving on

This makes me wonder how potent this MIND of ours is. And sometimes I feel we do so much less with our minds. This gets in my favourite movie. "THE MATRIX" if u haven't seen it u must not be educated enough..hahahaha..kidding..its one movie that one cannot miss. It takes the audience on a wild ride and IT sure took me For ONE..(Pun unintended).

It gives an unrealistic idea of what the brain can do. I mean generation of electricity from the brain would surely make all of us waking plug points :-)

I just loved the idea brought out in the movie. Of the way humans are controlled by the not so perfect system called Matrix. The movie also increased my faith in GOD. It is not difficult to replace the Machines with ONE GOD and the world with the Matrix (a perfect one). And us human unable to break the perfect matrix. Not have special talents like flying and bending spoons except by the permission granted by GOd himself.

WoW I simply love visiting those thoughts again. I have a deep theory. I hope I share it with you right here sometime. Till then
KEEP RIDING
Siraj

TO Lift or NOT

This Blawg starts with the following assumption:

God and Satan Exist and God is in control of all things and satan works in a direction opposite to God. Putting it generally God does Good and Satan Bad.

The Blawg:

I was coming home from Office. I work night shifts and it is around 3 a.m. when I am getting back. Now I drive a bike, alone, no pooling and stuff. Because nobody comes from this(my colony) far. I am also writing this blawg just after reaching home on one such early morning.

I must be very happy driving back Home for two reasons
1. I am going to my home...
2. I am driving on such empty roads that the driving experience in itself is worth undertaking more often than not.

I am not very HAPPY...The reasons follow.

When I am coming back.. there are many people asking for lifts. I am generally give lifts 75 % of the time, but that is during morning times. But I realized after a few night ridings later that this ratio does not apply to night drives. The rates fall drastically and hover around 5 %. I am worried. Here come God and satan.

IN the event of denying a person a lift I think I am putting more trust in the activities of Satan than in the mercy of God. I am somehow sceptical to give the lift to an unknown person at such an ungainly hour. I fear the occurance of a mishap more thus not totally trusting God.

That said, i try to justify myself saying to myself, "well, I guess maybe God wanted me not to give a lift to such a person!" so there is a slight confusion there. One thing is for sure. The person asking for a lift at that time needs it more than a person asking at a normal daylight hour who has a better chance of getting a lift. But then, drunkards and miscreants generally stroll out at night..without any business...This leads to my second reason of not being happy

There are too many poor people in Hyderabad, who sleep on the roadside footpaths and dividers.

Next time I will count the number of people sleeping on the roadside..X and then multiply this X with Y a factor to arrive at total number of people sleeping on roads in Hyderabad. I woould like anybody to suggest how I go about deciding this Y factor.

I would also like input on whether I should give lfits more often than now?

It still bothers me. I am not giving lifts. I feel safer not giving them. But I think it is totally dependent on factors such as area where the person is asking a lift.. Is he drunk or not? Is he genuine? Is he safe? All these questions are decided at a moments spur. So i can peacefully close this blog praying to God to give me better abilities to decide whether to give lifts or not.

Regards
Siraj
(3:54 a.m. - 1-06-2005)

Spell'ing' Bound

Nobody really cares about spellings while chatting..and I suppose forums have to be as flexible as chats..

The question of what happens after death bother everybody..religion does give an idea of what is to come..
1. Humans did not evolve..if they did then the concept of soul does not hold..and life and death are mere occurences and nothing really happens after death except decomposition.
2. If human beings are a special creation then it is most Probably (and it is by christian and Islamic standards) true that Adam and eve were the first to land on earth along with Satan. Now if this is true then Heaven and Hell exist.

Now comes the question who goes to heaven and who goes to hell. There is no doubt that people doing good deeds will go to heaven and people doing bad sins go to hell. The time bad people spend in hell would be directly proportional to the gravity of their sins. But evil doers will eventually land up in heaven after their term in hell as I am sure God is very merciful.

Now comes the question of standards..what is a sin and what is not. Who defines what is right and what is not? Human beings I think and believe are simple beings..unable to comprehend a lot of things happening around them...They surely need some guidance..Who will give the guidance? and when?

We all know most products we buy have an operation manual..i.e. what is right or acceptable performance of that product and what is wrong or harmful to the product..We need to find that operating manual to understand what is right and wrong.

Again who will give the guidance? GOD of course..as the engineer of the product called Human Being God will surely provide the proper Guidance. Now the widely accepted guide books throughout the world are Torah, Bible and The Quran..in the same chronological order..Only the Quran accepts that the books Torah and Bible are divine revelations. So it is for us humans to investigate these books The Torah, The Bible and The QUran..thouroughly and only those version that are original..as far as my knowledge goes only Quran has retained its original form in both Language as well as meaning..others might contest this but it is a verifiable fact..also Bible and Torah were revealed in languages that are no longer in regular use these days....So in the end I wud like to conclude..THERE IS LIFE AFTER DEATH.!!

Sinners according to the best Guide Book (read Quran) will go to hell and Pious will go the heaven...After all this blabber that I have conveyed to you I can only say one thing GOD KNOWS BEST!! and MAY GOD Guide us.

Siraj

Resolutions

Bismillah hirahman niraheem (In the Name of Allah the Most Merciful most Beneficient)

Policy
1. Do things that benefit you.
2. Don't talk about others unless it is something good
3. Get to mosque FIVE minutes Early.
4. Do not sit idle.
5. Sleep less>>inventions and discoveries were not done while sleeping.

List remains incomplete...after I forgot where I had left it

Short Life
Every moment a Test
In this sphere of life there is not to reason why, there is but to do and die

Prepared on my 24 th birthday

What a LEADER does!!

1. Has the ability to change his own mindset and those of others
2. Helps create organisational vision and mission
3. Thinks globallys and acts locally
4. Communicates frequently with his people
5. Lays strong accent on strategy formulation
6. Evolves management succession plan
7. Facilitates shared values and cultures organisation wide
8. Ensures continuous upgradation of skills within the organisation
9. Creates a learning organisation
10. Builda a strong human resources management system
11. Makes all major decisions
12. Rewards loyalty